Tuesday, June 21, 2011

House of Chaos

All of the nice sweet stay at home moms that bake and clean all day and say their world is perfect, I envy you no longer. I despise you. Baking and playing with kids all day could be fun, if you had the right kid maybe. It just isn't something that would happen in my house. I think I live in the house of chaos. Something bad always happens. Some mess always gets made. And then something almost catastrophic always seems to happen.

After getting to the bus station for the second bus yesterday, and waiting for almost two hours because the bus I wanted to take was late and too full, and the next bus never came, I left. I marched off in a bitter rant with my bags and baby in tow, sweating as I huffed walking down the street in frustration at the lack of customer service in this country. This is when I want to be treated like the princess that I think I am and have a limo come pick me up with great a/c and take me to paradise. Or at least give me a lift to get everything done easier. (By easier I mean, MY WAY!) I went home like a grump, fed my kid, and I decided to head to the orphanage today. This would mean that I needed to leave the house by 7 am and have Jayden (now 13 months), dressed, fed, and packed at the bus station by 6:45.  I couldn't do it. I had him in bed early enough last night. I went to bed early enough. Thanks to the barking dogs of the neighbor next to us we were awake by 5:30!  This should be the perfect start! BEING AWAKE ON TIME! It was not!

It is now 10 am and I am still here. I am not going to the orphanage today. I am ready for a nap and never left the house! Here is a glimpse into the day I have had so far... (Created by my apparently disgruntled toddler!)

Closet Organization - not just the shoes that are easy to reach, but any shirt or dress or belt that was within reach while prancing on tip toes!
Toy Box and Shelf Organization
Messy diaper removal and finger painting with contents.
Kitchen pot removal and inspection of cabinets.
Soup making in the bathroom toilet. (ingredients anything within reach!)
Finger painting with hand cream.
Freshening of the air a bit with the breakage of a perfume bottle.
Inspection of the top of the dining room table by mounting pillow on chairs followed by the removal of any contents that may be in the pathway!
Cleaning the floors with milk.
Spreading the garbage around the house to share with who knows what because it contained a bright and colorful box.
Dumpage of the mop bucket while mom is cleaning up some of the messes.
Found a box of construction staples in some dark corner of God only knows where and dumped out every last one and began to break them up.

You see, for every single item on this list, I was either making him breakfast, trying to pee, or cleaning up a prior mess that he had created! It is non-stop in this house. WITH JUST ONE KID! I want to SCREAM!!! Now that you know the activity level of this crazy little critter, imagine the taking the animal out into public areas. There are almost no options for discipline at this age. People say distraction and conveniently finding a toy to entertain them are the best options. Well, I didn't even mention the things that I caught him doing and got him distracted from to avoid additional problems and messes. For instance, the eleven, yes, eleven times I found him with his fingers behind the electrical outlet plates. Or grabbing the speakers before he pulled them off the shelves. Or distracting him as he began to pull every sheet and pillow off the bed. Or the numerous times I had to remove him from the computer and take the phone out of his hand. It is never-ending with him! I don't know how I am supposed to continue to do the things to help out in this world, and continue to be a light, continue to share God's love and pour into others when I have to do all of this too!

Thank God it is nap time! Excuse me for a minute, I have to go clean up some messes. Oh and don't get me wrong. There are some sweet moments. We managed to get in some giggles, kisses, and cuddles. Those moments just don't last long enough!


.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Happy Birthday Daddy!!

On days like this it is really hard to be away from home. It is my dads birthday, again. And I am not with him, again! I don't know if I should make him a cake and eat it for him, or wait and make it when he comes down in a couple weeks. I want to celebrate him, but with him. I want my son to be able to crawl on him and slobber all over his Avi. I want him around to speak into his life. To love on him. To guide him. To be an example. To be to him everything that he was to me, and more!

I love you dad! You are and always will be my hero!